Stepping Into The Unknown

I have a lot going on in my mind. Sometimes, I just feel like I need to get things done, but really there is nothing for me to do. (Well, except studying, but you know). And it gets to the point when I’m having a free time or a day off, my mind is constantly spinning and I feel guilty for not doing anything, which in many case you should be. But for my case, I find it unhealthy.

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Sick Of Losing Soulmates

One of my biggest fear is losing people who I truly love, and mean so much in my life. I’m here talking about how much I appreciated them and how much I value their presence in my life.

First of all, thank you.
For existing, for caring about my physical health and mental state, thank you for always supporting what I do and giving me advice on so many things. I’m grateful to have you, and I love you.

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an open letter: to a loved one

Hello,
How’s everything? I hope you are having a great day, wherever you are in the world. Thank you, for darting your eyes into this letter, I hope it’s worth your time.

I’m a mess.
I can’t read body language and eye stare or– of course, inside other human’s brain. But I’m also not good at verbalizing my own feelings to the other person either.

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Do I Have Trust Issues?

I can’t trust people anymore. Every time I try to there’s always something ache in my stomach, and some inner voice forcing me to stop.

This story started at three years ago, when I trust someone so deeply, but they turn against me and betray the trust I have fully given to them. I don’t want to talk much about it, because it triggers the memory to come back when all I want is only forget it.

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